Making Mako

Desucon is 14.-16.6.13. This. Weekend. 

It came so sudden eaventough I've been waiting for it a few months.. But I haven't been slacking, oh no. 

I have been making items to sell in the convention. Usually I've been on Artist's Alley, but this year we're going to try our luck in the Exhibition Hall (suom. myyntisali) so it's  a bit different this time around.

I've also been trying to finish my Mako (Avatar- Legend of Korra) cosplay. Actually I only have the shoes left unfinished so it's all good.

Day 1: Materials and lineart of the outfit. I usualy draw the outfit I am doing as it helps me to think about the sewing process.

..And the finished patterns.

Day 2: I dyed a white fabric with tea. The plain white was too Bright!

Days 2-3: Sewing the jacket

It was weird to start sewing after a long time. I tought I would be struggling with the seams and well-- everything else, but supricingly it all came to me as I sat down by the machine and started to sew.

 Of course there were errors, there are always some, but I allowed myself to make them. Normaly I would've tossed the sewing machine to the floor ( I nearly have already), cursed myself to the lowest pit of hell and stormed into a secluded corner to cry, hating my guts.. 

Yes, that was my Perfectionism taking a form. And I really don't want to go back to feeling like that again. That is why I am doing this self- examination process.

Day 4: Making the knots and finishing it up... Ugh, I hate my camera.

Day 5: The pants and the scarf. I actually cut a pair of my old pants to make them into knickerbockers. Quick and easy~

The black gloves I already had so that saved my time aswell. Now it's just me and the shoes.. 

I'm trying to keep up a good mood eaventough stress of the event is building fast, but I'll try to do my best!

Now, I need some sleep...

I'm not perfect

There's a whole lot of issues running trough my head these days and trying to find an appartment isn't making it any easier. At the moment I'm also trying to discover a way to work on my Perfectionism.

I think that's my worst obstacle, since there's no such thing as a perfect person.

Being perfect is just something that's planted in our heads since we're little. We keep trying and trying to get there and get disapointed and angry with ourselves because we'll never be good enough. And that causes anxieties and stress. Atleast that's how it is with me. I'm not good at giving myself any credit for a job well done or being proud of what I have accomplished..

Since I've started to acknowledge it, I have actually started to create again and finishing old projects of mine. Earlier I've been scared to eaven start doing things as I am put down by the fear they'll never be good enough. But I have set my own standarts ridiculously high and failure has never been an option to me.
I realize that now..

I still get discouraged easily at some days, but I want to feel the joy of making things and finishing them eaventough they might not be the best of their kind, but atleast I've tried my best and had fun while doing it.

And that is amazing! Hopefully a new start for the better..

Suki- Avatar the Last Airbender

A good example: The first backround of this picture failed and Sukis' hair suddenly got some weird splatter marks on it. I felt devastated and I tought I wouldn't eaven want to see this picture ever again. I was couraged by my lover to just make a new backround and try to color over the splatters... After a while, I did. And this backround was so much better! And the splatters are gone. I did it!
And it felt so good to finish this drawing and I dare to say that I am proud of it.
Sometimes eaven a mistake can be a good thing.